Why can't anything be easy?

Things had been going so well for me.  My emotions were in check and I actually felt a sense of peace about everything.  I had "gotten over" my desire to be pregnant and felt content with things were and then I got sick.  For some reason, puking my brains out and taking care of a newborn just seemed like too much and it sent me into a downward spiral.  Then, my baby turned 1 month and it made things that much worse.

I think the bigger issue for me is that I don't know if/when or even if I want to do it all again.  I know I want to be pregnant again but I don't know that I can handle more children and obviously, I can't have one without the other.

Then there is the stress of everything else. Mostly, finances.  It seems things just happen for everybody around us.  The single guys that Tavo works with will get fired from their job for testing dirty on a drug test and rather than suffer any consequences for their actions, another even better job falls into their laps.  I wish it were that easy for Tavo.  I wish he could be so lucky as to just WISH something would happen and POOF, there it is.  Instead, he works his ass off for nothing.  He rarely complains, he goes to work everyday and follows the rules, puts in a true effort and sees nothing for it.

I guess the difference between us and them is that we can appreciate what we have and strive for better because we know we want it and deserve it.  And when we finally have it, we certainly won't take it for granted.